long long story. bow.

it's been a while since i updated this blog of mine. so bare with me if this will be quite a long story.


to start with...
intrams
yay! we definitely dominated the school.
under the sun, the riscian seventh batch cheered the players in their respective sports. we didn't think of our opponents as novices in their fields (actually, the freshmen really showed something).
kya lang, hindi nmin masyadong kinareer ang individual events. we focused on the team sports. fortunately, may place ang seniors sa bawat sporting event.
yeepee! congrats batch 7!


tour
i expected it to be totally fun. kaso may mga bagay talaga na hindi inaasahan...pero okay na rin kc we were given the chance to explore and enjoy with our friends.
we first went to the museo ng katipunan. im not really fond of visiting such places kaya hindi ako masyadong nag-enjoy. pero nakakamangha talaga ung miniature katipuneros pati na rin ung iba pang tao na nkdsplay. heehee. db, arna?

after the museum, we to the bio-research sucat hypermart. there many interesting stuff in there but i don't like the idea of carrying a fish placed in a plastic bag wherever you go. haha. kaya in the end, binigay ko kay carlos ung fish. buti na lang nanghingi si emil kaya gumaya si carlos. aun...actually, kasama ko si arna. picture galore kami. hehe. bumalik na kami sa bus tapos...argh! lowbat na ung cam ko! wala pa kmi sa ek. huhu.

sa ek, i went with my friends. andun din c arna. tagal ko na rin hindi nka-bond ung best friend ko. hay...
anyway, it was the highlight of the tour. kso hindi ko na ikkwento ng buo kc bka lalong humaba tong post ko. ;p


home
it was the first time i saw my mom in terrible pain. physical pain.
grabe, ayoko siya makitang ganun...hindi ko kaya.
im hurting now because of her. hindi ko lang alam kung pano ieexpress.
our family needs help in prayer...


connections
bkt ganun? kapag ok kami, hindi kmi ok ni alter. pero kapag ok kmi ni alter hindi kami ok...
i realized that you can't really have everything you like. ang ewan kc. bigla nlng ngging ganun kht ayoko.
aun. back to him, binati ko sya nung birthday nia. i was half expecting na hindi sya magrereply kc gbe na. hinintay ko talaga ung midnyt para batiin sya. tapos bigla syang nagreply. nagkatext kmi. tapos naramdaman ko ulet un...ung unexplainable feeling of extreme comfort. kso bago pa lumalim ung usapan nmin, naggudnyt na ko. at around 1am, ngtxt sya. eto ung exact words:

wahai.psenxa n.pero sna wag ka nman sna lumayo.p2log plng ako.

kmusta nman un? redundant pa! haha. anyway, ayoko na sanang maniwala sa kanya. buti nlng, it was a very busy day nung monday.
kaya lang kahapon...nagkatext ulet kmi. nag-unli ako para sknia. naicp ko lang bumawi dun sa mga araw na hindi ko sya nirereplyan. panu ba nman, upcat ko pa sya huling tnext. at eto nanaman si unexplainable feeling. sya lang nkpgpagaan ng loob ko. sknia ko lang nasabi lahat ng pasanin ko, at pinapabalik nya ako. xmpre as a friend...
naramdaman ko ung loneliness nia lalo na nung ngkwento na sya. kya lang, kung alam sna nya ung kabilang side nung story, mas maiintindihan nya ang mga bagay2.
at aun. ung other side ng story ang pumipigil sken. ayoko na tlgang maniwala sknia eh. kso para syang magnet. kya iniicp ko nlng ung mga buwan na nahirapan akong mag-move on tska ung "need" na cnsbi ni arra. fortunately, nakapag-isip ako ng mabuti. ill be there for him but not totally. hindi na mababalik ang dati. hindi n din cguro ako "babalik". masaya na ako khit pano. contented and stronger. thanks to you.


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sori kung masyadong napahaba. :)